It has come to my attention.

So I’m reading lots this website called “Texts from last night” which is pretty good, I have to admit, but its making me feel like I have missed out on something. I’m reading a lot of texts that have a “I was soo drunk and fucked such and such” and all I can think is ‘So, when does this happen to me? Am I too old, did I miss my chance somehow? And where are all these girls that have anal sex in nightclub toilets?’ (According to this website, there are a lot of them). I am seriously beginning to worry that I did not participate enough in my younger days, that I should have at least 1 tattoo that I regret, I should have naughty Polaroid’s that I don’t remember taking, that I should have at least one encounter on the street where I run into someone that I have had sex with, but don’t recall. Embarrassingly, my list of sexual conquests is far shorter than I wish it were, but what am I going to do, go out and commit a bunch of rape?

As sickening as it is, that last line made me laugh. ‘A bunch of rape’. Sometimes bad English is more fun than behaving badly. But anyway, moving on, and this brings me to my next point.

Since when did sexual violence become so readily accepted in today’s day and age? I was talking to a friend the other day about taboos and such, about how once the blow job was an unacceptable topic of discussion and a bit taboo, and now it’s a prerequisite for being a teenage girl, I mean, what the fuck, where is this middle ground and how did we cover it so quickly? We could use this information to invent some sort of faster than light travel perhaps. I feel the same way about violence and sex. It used to be pretty risqué tying someone up and then fucking them, you know, but now it seems like you can’t have sex with someone without giving them a touch up first, and I don’t mean a gentle caress.

Now I understand that not everyone is out there beating the shit out of their girlfriends pussy, I know that its not everyone’s cup of tea, but I’m worried that it will become more standard and more common as time goes by. I know that we’re not all going around raping unconscious 16yr old girls and filming it on our mobile phones like certain army recruits, (while I’m here can I just say that this is not the sort of person I want protecting my country)(unless he is a human shield) but I have this terrible fear that we’re close to being the people that will say “Yeah, I’ll watch that”. Which I almost think is scarier, the fact that for our own titillation, we’ll watch someone being violated. I know that this isn’t ‘Kids’ by Larry Clarke, but the problem is, we’re not that far off. Our music is overtly sexualized, now we don’t even listen to what’s inside the cover because what’s on the cover is distracting out attention.

The problem is that we are becoming so desensitized to these things that we no longer feel the moral outrage that we used to, it no longer effects us. I have watched so many videos of people dying that it means nothing to me now. More often than not the only thoughts I have when I watch them are on the angles, the lighting and how hard it would be to re-create to get it feeling so realistic. Like when I saw that Bud Dwyer footage and I thought, not un-ironically, “Wow, that was beautifully shot.”

I realize that adding humor to this topic is about as far from good taste as I could get but I wanted to point how just how acceptable it is now. All the best new jokes are rape or pedophilia jokes, its like they somehow want us to make it acceptable. I once wanted to write an article titled “The sexualisation of our teens: Why the left hand doesn’t want to know what the right hand is doing” but I figured what the hell, no one cares because we’re too busy taking advantage of the free buffet that we have created.

Mouths full and up to the elbows, we dine like the pigs that we are.