Bash that fucking face in.

Do you know what i do sometimes? And don't say masturbate in the mirror because i stopped doing that when i realised my 'O' face was a lot like my bored face. No, sometimes when I'm a bit 'unhinged' I like to imagine myself beating the shit out of someone. I'll extrapolate.

I like to imagine that perhaps I've caught someone stealing from my store and when i confront them they do something like, say, pull a needle on me. Instead of freezing like a little girl I spring into action. I wrench the needle from their hand and commence "Beat Down 2008". Perhaps i drag the person outside on the footpath and do it there, maybe i keep them inside and intimate. Another one of my fantasies is where i catch guy trying to rape a girl and I subject him to what is basically torture.

I think maybe what i want most is people to see me beating someone half to death. With each blow i want teeth to fly and blood to spurt. I want people to stand shocked and appalled, after a while someone will step from the crowd and pull me off whatever is left. I want to see horrified faces and revulsion in peoples eyes. I want to be surprised at my own savagery, but at the same time, satisfied with the animal inside me. I want people to cower when i look at them.

What I want most of all is for everyone to be afraid of me.